Saturday, July 15, 2006

Walk Eighty-two – Tom

My son Tom came with me on my walk – to be there for me – because I had just received the news that my mother has died today. As anyone who has suffered at the hands of a parent with borderline personality disorder will know, my feelings are very ambivalent. A great deal of sadness because I have lost my mother and because of the unhappiness of the emotional roller-coaster of her life. But also some relief. She can no longer hurt the people who care for her and her own pain is over.


Blogger Alison said...

Oh, Julie, my tears fall for you, and for me as I read this. It's the end of a long day - my mother nearly died today - her blood pressure dropped too far below its low low level and she conked out at the craft markets. I called the ambulance but she came to and, despite wet pants, was unaware of what had happened, talking and joking, so we cancelled the ambulance and just went home but she is so tired and frail - nevertheless I cooked Sunday roast and they came for dinner and now I'm just used all up. You have drawn a lovely picture of Tom - I don't know what I can manage today. Thinking of you, Alison

11:59 am  
Blogger Hashi said...

Julie, thank you for sharing your beautiful drawing and your feelings about your mother's passing. Thank you also for the link -- I read the symptoms of this disease with widening eyes. In so many details it sounds like the disorder that afflicts one of my children. This has given me a handle on it.

2:42 pm  
Anonymous zephyr said...

Dear Julie,
Thank you for sharing this with us. And what a marvelous man your son is...
fond, caring thoughts to you and your family from across the ocean

6:14 pm  
Blogger Penny said...

Thank you for sharing Julie, a lovely drawing and I too know how you feel about your loss, relief is sometimes a very good feeling.I am not sure if I am saying this correctly.

2:06 am  
Blogger Julie Oakley said...

Alison, Hashi, Zephyr, Penny, thank you all for your kind words, I appreciate it very much. Alison it seems to me that your mother is very fortunate to have such a caring daughter. Hashi I am glad that at least one person who needs to know about this little known condition has found out about it through my post. Penny I still feel empty, but I hope that relief will come.

8:32 am  
Blogger Felicity said...

Julie, I'm so sorry to hear about your mother. My mother is in hospital and I don't want to say too much about her but I think I know how you are feeling to some extent. My sympathies.

9:57 pm  
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12:53 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I deleted my post because someone seems to be tracking my posts and I don't want personal family stuff available to him.
Anyway, I hope all went smoothly in the visit to Ireland.

12:02 am  

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